It’s just before 4 am. I’m tired enough to have to retype every other word but awake enough to want to write. I’ve been noticing a change in myself. Not for better or worse, just a change, an evolution of sorts. I’m trying to make myself care about people more and trying to give niceness a chance. I’ve become interested (read: roped in) to a good friend’s thousand and one causes that she supports (falling whistles, tom’s, invisible children, NWA… ok she doesn’t support Niggas with Attitude, but maybe she should? Maybe I should for that matter.) I dont know if it’s because of all her stories about kids dying and people going hungry or what but I’m becoming less hard boiled. I feel like some defenses are crumbling incertain company and I’m not sure if I’m into it or not. I just spout worthless views on marriage and love and my feelings about the correlation of the two and then I realize what I’ve just said and wonder why I’m talking about it at all. Word vomit. Binge listen and Purge ideas. Too much estrigen lately perhaps? I dunno.
I’ve been drinking a lot lately, that last fragmented thought coming out of my mouth as a part of a sentence is like a monk saying he’s been praying a lot. I’ve curbed my drinking considerably in the last year or so. for the last few months more than any other time. Until the holidays I was drinking to get drunk once a month, all other drinking was social and relatively harmless or just nonexistant. When I drink like this I get lonely, and if steve’s around it gets worse cause it’s easy to be egged on by stephen. At which point I decide it’s a good idea to randomly text all but about three females in my phone book… it gets hilarious at times, other times it’s mostly disappointing, but it’s always something.
Overall, it’s been a good holiday season. Got to see some old friends, drank heavily and didnt get any presents that were too incredibly worthless. I’m compiling a list of best and worst of 2008 for the bliggity blog and will post in in the next few days.
Listening to: Mogwai (discography), This Will Destroy You (S/T), Pinback (Blue Screen Life), Ryan Adams (Heartbreaker), Neutral Milk Hotel (Beauty)
Watching: Seven Pounds****, Gran Torino***, Gilmore Girls (Damn you MK!), Choke***, Yes Man* (total crap, get’s one star because Zooey Deschanel is the third most attractive girl on earth)
Random Steve Wasson Fact # 4,326 – It only takes Steve Wasson three beers to be trashed, but in dog beers, he’s a fucking champ.
